Natalia

I spent the entire day nervous about this moment, I hadn’t tried to cancel the date. If you could call it a date. My reservations about it went away the moment this gorgeous guy showed up at my doorstep.

“Do you want a drink?” I offered and pulled away from the light touch on my cheek.

I could feel the heat of my blush and the way my heart pounded in my chest and tried to breathe through it. I was nervous and awkward, because not only was this going to be my first time, but it was going to be with a guy that I didn’t know. I knew of him, but I didn’t actually know him.

Luca was attractive, tall, with blond hair, blue eyes, built lean and dressed to impress. Also, he was a senior and pretty popular, so while we weren’t in the same social circle, I had glanced at him a few times around campus in the short weeks I’d been here.

He was the last person I’d expected to show up on my doorstep. He could have any girl that he wanted, he didn’t need a line to have sex. Then it dawned on me, he didn’t need a line, but he did need the money.

“I don’t have any alcohol, but I’ve got bottled water and juice, then again maybe I have a soda or two, I could check,” I babbled, and felt my blush grow hotter.

My room was big, especially because I didn’t share with a roomie. It was filled with a sofa, fridge, microwave, TV and desk, some just had a bed and a small desk. I’d made mine into a little apartment, without the luxury of a fully-fitted kitchen. I crouched down and buried my face inside the cold, bright fridge so I wouldn’t have to look at him.

Luca was exactly the kind of guy I would have had a crush on back in high school and watched from afar. There was no way on Earth a guy like him would ever look at a girl like me. There wasn’t anything wrong with me. He was older and far more important than a freshman like me. Besides he was popular, I never had any friends back in high school, so when Alicia and Caroline decided to be my friend, I thought that I’d hit the jackpot. Two popular girls wanting to hangout with me.

“I don’t need anything,” he said. “Why don’t we sit down first? And just get to know each other, so that you can feel comfortable and if it still doesn’t feel right to you, the maybe…”

I interrupted, what he was going to say by saying, “No. I want to do this.”

He smiled at me, a smile that said he was nice and gentle, like he’d promised he would be with me. Just the thought of the reason he was there was enough to make me think my face would remain permanently pink.

We were… going to have sex. I was going to give my virginity to Luca. He seemed nice enough, so most of the apprehension had died. While I didn’t think it was something to just throw away, I didn’t see much point in holding onto my v-card, neither. Besides, if I didn’t take this chance, who knew when it would happen?At this rate, I’d probably end up graduating university the same way I did high school.

A virgin!

Get a grip, Natalia. No backing out now, you’re already in this far.

Not only was I a virgin, but I rarely spent any time with the opposite sex, apart from my cousins. Even then I hardly saw them anymore. So, this was really a big deal for me, so much more than I realized until now.

I closed the fridge door andLuca grabbed the chair at the desk and turned it around.

He took the chair, and I sat on the bed. I’d made it up with new sheets. I’d chosen dark ones because I knew there might be a mess. I’d… even purchased condoms, just in case he didn’t have any. That had been completely mortifying, and I’d covered myself up with a scarf and kept my head down the entire time.

We sat in silence for a while. I didn’t know what to say, but I couldn’t stop thinking, and then I could hear the sound of my breath as it grew heavy and ragged with apprehension and a little excitement.

“Hey.”

I looked up and blinked. I didn’t notice when he stood up, but Luca had moved in front of me. I was ready to shrink back, but he fell into a crouch, into my line of sight, so he wasn’t looming over me.

“Just relax,” he murmured, as he took one of my hands in his and squeezed it gently. “If at any point you feel uncomfortable, let me know, and we can stop.”

I watched him for a moment before I nodded slowly.

Luca stood up and tugged me by the hand so I would stand up as well.

“Should we get started?” He asked, after a moment of watching me carefully.

I thought for a second and nodded.

“Can you… take a step back first?” I asked shyly.

He moved without a word, and I reached my hands up, a little hesitant. I was ready for his arrival a long time before he’d actually shown up. I took a shower making sure that every inch of me was clean and that I had on the best underwear. I didn’t know if he’d find it sexy or not, but I found myself wanting to know his opinion of me. He was going to be the first person to see me naked since I was a kid. I didn’t work out, and I ate plenty of junk food, but it never bothered me, until now.

I started to undo the buttons, of my dress, and I glanced at him once I’d undone the first one, then I paused to look at him.

“You already got the payment, right?” I asked, to confirm. Honestly, I really just wanted to stall the moment.

“I received payment,” he said, his expression now amused. “And, you can take your time. I’m not going anywhere.”

He moved back until he could lean against the desk, bending his back a little, arms draped on his thighs.

“There’s no rush,” he continued. “We have an hour, and, when you’re ready for me, just say so, and I’ll be the one to make a move.”

I bit my lip, because of his words, and because he looked so sexy just leaning there. I could feel excitement start to grow in my body.

“Besides I like what I see,” he winked at me.

It took away my fear of being naked in front of him in an instant.

“I am,” I whispered, then cleared my throat. “Ready, I mean. For you.”

“Are you sure?”

He asked as he moved to close the space between us once more.

I didn’t shy away from him this time.

My hands were still on the buttons of my dress. I’d only managed to undo two of them, and there were several. Luca took both my hands and kissed the palms, before he took over and undid my buttons. His eyes met mine, before they dropped to my chest and my bare skin. I heard him sigh, and he ducked his head to brush a quick kiss over my lips that made me gasp, before he moved to my cheek.

My first kiss, proper kiss, not like the one that I had in sixth grade, which was a peck back at summer camp. This one was short

, barely a few seconds, but I was still giddy just thinking it, and Luca had only just started.

As he stripped me, he kissed me in places where I’d never been touched me before, and all my reservations fell away as I clutched at his arms and did my best to not melt into him. It was a battle I was sure to loose.