You will surely get bored when you spend seventeen years with one person who talks to you and is not always with you because he is busy, and by that I mean Jackson.

I arrived at my home where I live alone after a period of silence, which of course is far from all the herd's homes, the hospital, etc.. This is what the Alpha ordered me to be isolated for an indefinite period and maybe even my death under heavy guard, although he didn't really say this.. But... What does it mean that the beta of the herd is, and if it is not there, it becomes the gamma with me all day long..?

I sat by the window watching from a distance the children of the flock playing with each other excitedly and naughty among them and those who carry many things and who hang some things while Gamma Peter stands two meters from me and I can feel his stares at me but I didn't want to look at him.. I know exactly what his stares endured It's a complete pity that I didn't have the normal childhood that any human girl like me deserved.

My thoughts stopped as soon as I heard my door open and Peter's voice called out,

"Alpha Chris!"

Peter immediately bowed when the alpha entered my house, I turned to him and did not change my position. He stayed like this for a few seconds before getting close to me and hugging me tightly.

I wasn't really surprised unlike Gamma Peter who looks at us in amazement, well maybe I'm a little surprised.

Sometimes he hugs me for no reason and doesn't say anything when he's away but that only happens when it's just the two of us and not with a third almost drooling in utter shock on his face, "Shut your mouth, Gamma Peter," said the alpha to take his eyes completely off us and it seemed they had had mental communication since the gamma Peter left without a word.

Alpha Chris and I were left alone and silently, I feel the affection of the Alpha towards me, which is not merciful at all, but unlike Jackson, I can only feel strange with him, he takes care of me and keeps me away like his flock, but he hugs me sometimes and looks at me while I sleep, and now he raises His hand gently rested on my cheek as he looked at me with those vague eyes.

"Sorry," he

whispered in a weak voice that made my eyes widen. He is that strong alpha who does not show his weakness even to Luna and his beloved companion for his strong pride, but now he is apologizing to me in a very broken tone, but I realized deep down that he always feels guilty about me.. To be frank, I do not know how I feel about his apology.

I'm really against Jackson's hopes of having the chance to live like a human girl again and soon and with the sadness and pity of Gamma Peter Ali and his desire to help me even though he didn't and wouldn't break the orders of the Alpha for me, I didn't want it... The life I have lived for seventeen years and I am facing the consequences and hardships of global change?

He got up and greeted me with his back when he did not find an answer from me.. and how to give him when I did not know the appropriate response, we stayed like this and the place became silent again, these silent moments with him make me feel strange but safe at the same time although it is completely different from what I feel when I am around Jackson.

“You will be attending the annual honoring ceremony today, so wear your best clothes.”

He said my eyes rolled in complete astonishment and my features overcame the shock and certainly I thought I was starting to delusion or hallucinate, but his last look he gave me before leaving was enough to tell me that what he said was true! , I will attend a party with a large crowd around me and close to me?!.

I never showed up and was never allowed to attend these things. It always ended up being me in my house unlike everyone else partying with each other and their joy and enthusiasm rising to the hearing of me and Jackson who gives up all this for me and comes carrying toys with him so that we can spend our time together even though she You realize that his girlfriend resents this sometimes.

An overwhelming feeling of joy and pleasure gathered in my chest and I could not suppress it because I smiled so hard that I felt the pain of my face from the severity of my smile! Which was shocking to me. Was I really wishing that inside of me? On the other hand, worried about the reaction of the herd, will they accept my presence around them?

However, I flickered my thoughts and enjoyed the phrase that Jackson had been telling me all the time, 'Enjoy the moment and let your mind rest' and that smile reappeared as I jumped on the bed to suppress the scream of excitement with my pillow happily and enthusiastically.

I waited excitedly in my room until the party, which will take place immediately after sunset and the moonrise, knowing full well that Jackson will storm my house as if it was World War III with a wide smile .. I know that he will certainly be much happier than me!

The sound of violent door knocking startled me and almost broke the door of my house from its intensity. It woke me up from my wanderings and thinking about what might happen at the party. Of course, I learned from the owner of those violent knocks. As soon as I opened the door, he attacked me with a strong hug, “J-Jackson, you suffocate me!”

But he still hugged me tightly despite my desperate attempts to evade his body, which did not budge and it seemed that I was going to attend my funeral instead of the party! Is he crying for me now? Snow White's betta, one of the most powerful werewolves, sheds tears for a human girl he's not related to..? "Jackson...".

“Oh, that’s not cool!”

he said, wiping his eyes after turning his back to me to giggle in disbelief and with a feeling of happiness inside me, and it really seemed to make him angry “I can’t believe I broke my strong image of this vile girl behind me.” Hiss in exasperation but I hugged him tightly from behind Before turning towards me I rest my head on his back.

He who stayed with me and loved me openly, was not afraid, did not care about those around him, and spent more time with me than he spends with his valued companion, although this is a very great thing for mate to the werewolves, "Thank you, Jack, I am really grateful to you," I said, and I felt the rattle of my voice of a lump that suddenly caught me.

I really wanted to cry like he did for me, I really can't stand the tears taking his gun since I saw him lose one of his best friends in an attack three months ago I think, I've always thought of Jackson as the same father or brother I never had and thought I wouldn't I do until I meet him, "Oh well, get away now, Rina will smell you all over my body and you'll break the roof of my house over my head."

I laughed to walk away from him as he whines about Rina again nonstop but in the end he'll end up with endless confessions that he loves her and that she's the most beautiful thing he's ever seen and forgets why he was talking about her in the first place, sometimes I really feel bad for being the reason he spends so little time with Rina, I rolled my eyes When he comes to the part where he talks about how he loves her so much and his heart doesn't stop beating whenever he sees her like a monkey in a circus show! Seriously, a heart like a monkey and a wolf?

My eyes stopped at a spot to take my breath away and my limbs went completely numb. I felt that I was no longer in reality when I was looking at the same place..why again and now? This hasn't happened in years! That thing didn't show up anymore until I thought it was just a hallucination, "What's wrong with all of this?" I could feel Jackson's voice pulling me back and grabbing both shoulders with a worried expression on his face to tell my head that it was nothing.

But in fact that thing..is still looking at me