"Steve, come here." I shouted at him and was busy playing with his toys, and he was carrying the tiger-stuffed toys when he came to me.

Then I picked him up and hugged him, "Open wide." I said to him and he did that too. I don't know, right now I just don't want to leave him.

"I love you, mama." he said to me, and that made me soft and guilty at the same time.

"I love you, baby." That's all I said to him and then I lifted him up, making him hug me. Then I started to sway him while we were looking out the window.

I...