JULIAN

I found out on Tuesday.

Not from Thomas. Thomas did not tell me, which was itself the information, the primary data point from which everything else in the week could be correctly read. He had made a call. He had made several calls. He had made them in the specific and deliberate sequence of a man who believed he was being careful and had not yet updated his understanding of what I considered careful.

My network is not a thing I discuss. It is not a thing I built in any single moment or through any single decision, it is the accumulated result of twenty-three years of being someone...