LENA

I found out on a Saturday.

Not from Julian. I want to be precise about this because the way I found out matters, not from Julian, not from Nate, not from the specific and direct communication of a man who had decided to tell me a thing. I found out from a legal notification email that arrived in my inbox at nine forty-three on a Saturday morning because Julian's attorney James Whitfield had included me as an interested party on the filing and the court's automated system had generated a confirmation copy to all listed parties and my email address was on the document because I was, in the...