LENA

It didn't happen in the car immediately.

I want to be precise about this because the timing matters, it did not happen when we got in the car, did not happen in the specific and immediate way of a woman who had been hit and was now in a car and was finally in a private space and could let the private thing happen. I was not that kind of broken. I had never been that kind of broken, the particular and immediate kind, the kind that required only the specific and available trigger of a private space to release.

I had been broken in the particular and slow...