It's already been three weeks and today is my birthday. My husband hasn't returned home for the past three weeks. It hurts but I held back the pain.

But right now, I don't think I can hold back the pain. It hurts too much… looking at these pictures hurts a lot. 

My birthday was yesterday, I thought I would be happy but I wasn't. The arrangements were extravagant but still I couldn't find the happiness that I needed.

Jocelyn, Darren, grandfather and Hannah were there for me. They wanted to make me happy but I was so selfish, their love wasn't enough.

I wanted the love and attention of one...