Besides my continuing association with Oliver, my two greatest problems involved Tanner. He was more and more insistent I come off the pill and begin working on having our first child. As much as wanted to give him a child, I couldn't while Oliver was using me regularly. Any child I had, I wanted to be Tanner's and not some random stranger who'd fucked me. It would be particularly bad if it was immediately apparent it wasn't Tanner's, a bi-racial child, for instance.

The second issue involved Tanner coming to see me posing for his painting of me. At least once a week, even if only for an hour or...