For Cholo Gastrell,

I'm not sure if you'll ever get your hands on or read this Cholo but I'm just taking a chance. After all, this is the last thing you'll ever get from me.

I'm sorry for not being able to say goodbye to you. Please don't think that I left you. Yes, I'll admit that I thought about it at first but I immediately took it back because I couldn't leave you. I'm just stuck. I can not do anything. I'm just a humble girl. They can torture me, humiliate me, and kill me.

Maybe you already have an idea that I already have feelings for you. I...