Does that mean I'll never be a mom? I exhaled heavily then picked up the pregnancy test. Negative.

I sighed with a mix of relief and sadness. I knew it was the best possible result, because the way my life was at the moment. I could barely look after myself, let alone a baby. I threw it in the bin, then made my way back downstairs.

“It's negative,” I said softly to Tristan, but I got no reply.

I could see the back of his head over the couch, but he wasn't moving. Panic engulfed me when thoughts of him being dead flooded my brain. I held my breath as...