I gasp for air as I sit up in bed, shaking and sweating and so, so close to coming. I’m confused and disoriented as I smooth my hair away from my face. My core is throbbing so hard it hurts every time I take a breath.

Looking around, I notice I’m not even in my own room. I’m in the guest bedroom we set up for Finn.

Finn.

Daddy.

I reach out, expecting to find him buried under the pile of blankets next to me, but the bed is empty. Flopping back down on the mattress, I heave out a sigh, a smile lingering on my lips. Am I really...