Even in her circumstances it’s forbidden for her to find another mate and it wouldn’t exactly kill the bond she has to Juan. Even if she despises everything he has done, she still cries for the way her heart bleeds at the separation of her bond. It’s partly why she’s driven to sadness and isolation to try and work through and understand her own internal conflict. You can both love and hate someone at the same time.

“Maybe you’re right and I’m overthinking it. I just need to pull us all together and focus on one day at a time. I would never hurt you, Lorey, not like that. I...