In the evening, I went to the park alone and sat on the wooden chair by the roadside. I could see the joy everywhere.

Looking at those lively children, my mood improved a little. I thought, after the baby in the belly is born, will it be so lovely?

The sky slowly darkened and the wind was cool, but I sat there motionless. I didn't know what I was looking at. Maybe I wanted to integrate myself into such a happy atmosphere.

When I got home, I locked myself in my room and wrapped myself tightly with a quilt. I felt a little warm.

It's been a whole day since...