My hands trembled as a low sound left my lips yet, it was surprisingly I managed to continue reading.

“I sent you a total of one hundred and fifty notes, Leah.

One hundred and fifty!

And they were supposed to be more, but I had to end it somewhere.

Because I knew I would not survive another day, especially with the kind of pain I was in.

But then, I deserved it, and a whole lot more.

It was my penance for every fucked up thing I did to you.

I deserved it for ruining your life, Leah.

You never deserved any and everything I did to you.

And I...