I dare not think any more. Maybe at this moment she needs an extremely calm way to dispel these thoughts and force herself not to think fantastically.

She fumbled out of the room in the dark and came to the stern of the boat by herself, when the rain was much lighter, but if she stood alone for a long time, she would still get wet all over her body.

Get wet. This is an extreme way to calm down. Let the cold rain restrain its messy thoughts and calm down as soon as possible and get out of the difficult situation as soon as possible.

She stood for a...