Ryan’s POV

Lying down on my bed, I asked myself.

“Am I selfish and unfair?”

Terban was my first love. I studied in this school and accepted living in a boarding house with men because I wanted to see him. And yet, I didn’t expect to fall in love with another guy.

I caressed my forehead which Terban kissed last night.

“My heart hurt so much when he did that.”

Why? I was so sure that my heart belonged to Slyvester. Why am I feeling this way?

“Should I burn myself and die?”

No. Burning until death might be so painful.

“Then, drown myself?”

That is too… barbaric.

“Dying with...