Once I woke up from the coffee, Jared told me, "You were amazing last night. Every one of us will never, ever forget how much fun we had."

"I'm glad everyone had fun. I had a good time too."

To be honest, I felt a touch guilty about what I had done. It felt fantastic and exhilarating at the time but now I was feeling some remorse for acting like such a slut. I was conflicted because it was a huge turn-on to completely let loose and fulfill a fantasy but what guy would ever want to marry me if he knew what I was like? I wanted guys to...