I held my head, pulling my hair out, not being able to tolerate the pressure in my head.

That kid Hayden didn't deserve this, that girl Jennie didn't deserved it. I brought everyone into my f***ing depressed, disastrous life.

I crashed things, despite the pain I was enduring. My legs and hands hurt but it wasn't compared to pain in my f***ing brain.

Everything was turning black in me. Completely void of colors. I could no more hear the sound. No more feel the love. No one to give me happiness. No reason for me to live.

If I wasn't so weak and incapable of taking care of myself nothing...