Susan, a Guilty Mind and Hatching a Plan

My feelings over the next several hours cannot be conveyed.

First, an overwhelming general elation. There was this tremendous release, I believe, from a surge of testosterone that was now coursing through my body, a first in many many years. The feeling was so new to me, I wondered if I had actually been depressed. I kept looking at my hands, and remembering the feel of her flesh. But other parts of me were processing guilt and regret, and worry. What had I done? What if she were not fully honest with me? She may be disgusted with me. Of course she...