He looked at me as if to say *Are you crazy?*. "Of course, I was scared too many times to count. But you just swallow that fear and do what you have to do. Whether it's saving your own life, saving your team or killing the guys wearing the wrong uniform, you just do it.

I'm scared shitless right now. Talking with you. I promised to talk, to open up...I trust you completely. You'll never understand how hard this is. You'll never understand."

When he said that, something went through me. A wave starting at the top of my head and passing like the tide all the way to my...