Luke had graduated a couple months after we started sleeping together. I moved out ten months after Kim did. After he started talking about the future. Our future. Because he'd had an amazing opportunity to build one and not only did I convince him I didn't want it, I made him not want it too.

"Why haven't you taken it?"

"I haven't woken up feeling that way."

"You have to take it, Luke."

"Not leaving you by yourself, Jen. Remember?"

"I'm not.'

"You are."

"Is the offer still good?"

Luke sighed. "Yeah. He checks in with me regularly."

I set my beer down and covered my face with my hands....