Estelle`~

I never gave a shit about virginity, and I lost my faith the day I lost my parents so it didn't really matter.

The first time I had sex was with a random guy, who'd been nice to me before I turned nineteen. He was pretty much more nervous than I was and we did try dating but it didn't work out so we split mutually.

So yes, I didn't exactly believe that having sex automatically linked you to someone for life.

But sitting there, playing out that fantasy with Rowan, it felt particularly sexy to lean into those stereotypes, to put far more importance on my imaginary virginity...