Think of here, my heart is even more afraid. Has something happened that I fear most? Faced with such a change, what should I do? Go straight to her and apologize to her, tell her everything, or go on like this and say nothing. I was afraid that when I told her all about it, she would not be able to accept the blow of such a thing, would become more hateful to me, and henceforth she would never give me a smile.

When I thought about the horror of this, I knew that these things could not tell her everything at present. I sighed alone and was not in...