It became a knot in her heart, and she was always entangled in it, so that she could not get out of it. So she would refuse me at every critical moment and not let me be too close to her.

"You have a long way to go. I'm so impulsive than you. I just want you, but I never think about you and our children in the future. But you can rest assured that I'm not working hard now. Am I still a bachelor until I know you? I can get through it until you get well and we have children at that time, so don't be sad now....