It wasn't a question of whether or not he should admit his feelings. It was a question of whether or not he wanted to accept that feeling.

So, he refused. Because it was too painful. He just couldn't let himself love her. And that's precisely why he needed to go out tonight. It wasn't because of the girl. It was because he was afraid.

Too scary of making a stupid mistake like he used to do with everything else in his life.

Afraid of allowing someone close to him to see that side of him that he tried his best to hide.

Afraid of letting her see him weak. And...