I shouldn't have left like that, I think, wringing my hands. I shouldn't have ruined things for Allison like that.

But I couldn't help myself. I couldn't help wondering, the whole drive to the park, if Ian would really choose Alice and what I would do if he did. I would have to smile and wish him happiness, because I love him, and I want him to be happy.

But it would tear me to pieces. I can't imagine living with that. I just can't.

I owe Allison an apology, I think with a sigh, staring out the window. That outing meant a lot to her, and I just ruined...