When we got home, mommy Helena explained why the house was messy. She says she wants to be involved in preparing for Hugo’s wedding. Hugo was said to be his only child, so she wants the preparation to come from her own hands. I would also like to join in the preparation but I am thinking of my baby. Maybe when I always tire myself, it just doesn’t cling to me.

I am now sitting in the living room while watching Estella make a flower out of paper. The color she makes is sky blue and white. She puts a thin wire at the end, which seems to be the...