Ever since my encounter with my father have been missing him and wish to see him again but I chase him away and since then he have not been coming back again

I went to work earlier than normal days, because I have a design to submit to my boss. I was given the week fashion design to work on. Ever since I was appointed to do it have been busy, hardly have time to eat nor do anything else. Sam have been complaining for me to rest but I told him I will after am done with it. So here I am checking it out for the last time...