I'm ashamed because I grew foolish at the periods when I should have been falling in love with her. The drugs that I slathered all over my body had me completely engulfed. At times when I should have loved her more, I was preoccupied with the desires of my body. In part, I wanted to bring back the past because I never imagined it would be so agonizing to see her walk to the altar while my cousin waited for her at the end. Although I didn't see myself with her kneeling at the altar at the time, it occurred to me that she was wearing the veil of the...