I was stunned as I looked at her body. I could understand nothing but pain and tears. I’m an idiot and I don’t know where to look. I don't want to look at her because it hurts me to see that it's because of me that's what happened to her.

I can’t forgive myself. It was because of me that she wanted to end her life. She wanted to end her suffering. That included her suffering because of me.

"Lileth," I said and cried again. I bent down and cried as I continued to cry and call her name. "Lileth, I'm sorry." But no matter how much I apologized, she...