We finished just before the end of the stack of papers, I would have carried on but Julian was literally falling asleep. I could have forced him to carry on but that wouldn't have been right, I also know what next two people will be on that list.

We went to bed around 2am, still Morgan and Toby wasn't back, I was growing worried but I knew if something happened I would have heard about it. Waking up this morning alone was weird, for the last few weeks I've had Toby waking up beside me. But it did mean that I could get up bright and early and start work,...