I slowly get up from the bench and turn my gaze toward Axel. He looks up at me and his smile fades away, when he sees the expression on my face.

"Are you OK?" he asks quietly, looking worried.

I nod my head silently. I can't even begin to explain how I feel right now. How I feel about him. It's as if all the happiness and love and affection that I thought I was so lucky to find disappeared. And I feel completely devastated.

Completely numb and empty. I stare into his hazel brown eyes and notice that he looks pale. His skin seems paler than usual, his eyes...