As I was convincing myself to stay in the present situation and not to get lost in my dreamland where I would imagine that if I said yes to Charles for the question which he asked, he would tell me that he loved me. No matter how badly I wanted to be that girl who he started to love, I needed to be in touch with reality where I stood no chance to be with him in any more way than we were at that time.

So, I quickly answered that question which he asked me in the way that I felt right because if I was not getting my...