Her

Was that just my ingenuity, is everything just a one-sided love, I am in love with them no doubt about what I feel for them, the haul keep pushing me to them, sometimes I feel it's not me, I think something is controlling me, I am being controlled by unknown magic, not seeing them makes me relinquished my control, thinking or glimpsing them with another girl makes me want to die in rage. Why? Why is this happening to me? Why am I feeling like this? Why should my heart beat faster whenever I am with them, despite all that I have been through, rape, torture, pains, and hatred...