I wasn't sure how to describe how the funeral went, I mean how would you feel if someone you loved so much is been buried considering the fact that you weren't the last person she saw before she took her last breathe, there were no parting words no nothing.

I am heart broken, battered, and yet for some reason I still had mixed feelings that I know she would return. For me it was like those days when she would black out and won't speak to anyone for sometime, I would miss her like I am feeling now and then she returns to calling me by her sister's name.... Monica....