But when I was young, I didn't even know what the responsibility was. I didn't take the responsibility as a man at all. I just worked as hard as a bee. I wandered between flowers and thought I was charming. When I lingered about every woman's hair fragrance, I also thought about what I should do if something happened in the East window. But when I indulged in that boundless happiness, I had no time to look after myself, no excessive guilt at all, until I fell into the abyss of eternal disaster.

I've always been the one who started it, but what made this day come so fast was...