Present

Falling for him was not part of the plan, everything was going smoothly.

I was mentally prepared to kill him then why was it so hard to pull the trigger?

Or that I knew from the start I couldn't yet I did this because I wanted to hold the privilege of being his wife.

I wanted to be his wife. I became. Now what?

I became selfish.

I chose him, always. From the start I had.

Still.. Still...

WHY WAS I FAILING FROM BOTH SIDES?!

I was about to fail my duty and lose him. What was I supposed to attain at this point? Fuck!

"You can't do it....