I do not know how long I sat on the floor, crying, pouring, grieving my whole heart out. I could not breathe, the room was big but I felt like I was suffocating.

The blood on my hands have dried up and I didn't even dare to look down.

I want to say that I feel empty, but that's false. I was so full with pain and hurt and I didn't know what to do. I was so full of hurt and pain that I just felt... empty.

I thought of Archer, I really wanted him to be here.

I really need him here right now.

But he isn't here....