It's been three months since I begged my children to let me see them, and they turned me down.

I haven't heard anything new concerning Remon or my children. It appears that my actions have no ramifications. My day consists of purchasing alcoholic beverages from a convenience shop and napping in the motel where I am staying.

I'm running out of money that I had set aside for an emergency reserve.

I don't want to go back to the lagoon since I don't have anything to give to Mama this time. I have the impression that he will simply reprimand me and preach to me.

What is it about me...