Xavier was out. I didn't want to stay in the hotel room again, I felt strangely uncomfortable with him . That didn't stop me from acting stupidly desperate the way I always brought food for him or acted nicely nice whenever he was close by. He didn't bring up Brian's matter or his trying to strangle me or me hurting him with a vase. I wanted us to talk about it but I needed him to bring it up.

Getting a new car was useless. I couldn't drive, I tried going to a driving school during the last weekend but I thought the people working there were all silly. Some...