I have no idea if it's Xavier's confession making me feel this emotion or if it's the reality that no matter what he thinks he feels, we can never be together. I hated the way I randomly thought of it; I could be doing just anything and I'd get hit with it, that no matter how extensively we kiss or do stuff, it wasn't in our favor.

The library was the only quiet spot I could get so I walked there and gave the librarian my ID. I dropped my bags and put my phone in my pocket. I needed to think so I took a seat and pretended like...