so-called, whatsoever

I even looked for you, travelled from one country to another like a fool, in hopes that maybe I could see you by chance! Nora, you don't know what I went through and the funny thing is that you never cared and you still don't care" 

Nora dropped her head in shame, she didn't know how to retort. Her father never took away her phone, she had all the means to communicate with Zack but she chose not to.

"Nora, I wish you a good life and I hope you will always be happy. As for the two of us, it can't work, there can never be us....