Jonas sat down and we silently drank our beers. Nobody was talking. Me ? I was lost.. I was trying to be strong for Ashley by reassuring her that everything was going to be fine and that I would be there for her but on the other hand by doing this I was signing my death warrant for my marriage . My family was going to be completely destroyed and it was all my fault and as Neva said, my "reputation" was going to be destroyed and the image of the "good model and faithful husband" was going to disappear forever.

Jonas: so you were with her, is that why...