A delegation from the Crescent Pack came to pay me a condolence visit. Mum Cara came with them.

After saying their piece, much of which I didn't even hear, because my mind kept wandering and I kept wondering how I had everything in my grasp and still managed to lose the most important part of my existence, Mum Cara took me into an inner room.

'Millicent', she called. 'Millicent!' she repeated and I looked at her with eyes dull from weeping. 'I know this is very painful for you. I have seen the both of you together and I know how much the both of you loved each other and...