I have been having constant nightmares. Sleep is a tug of war. It feels like whenever I close my eyes, I feel like am submerged in the depths of the ocean with no one to save me. I am getting antsy these days. Every little thing makes me angry and vulnerable. I am back to taking my medications. Jackson makes sure that I have them every morning and night and if he's not there to supervise me, Amelia is. They are both breathing down my neck but I can't really blame them now, can I? I brought this on myself when I started to act nonchalant about my health. If...