I was tired and fed up with being the only one with a witty responsibility in the family. I envied my brother a lot. Even though he has been accused of sexual assault and using drugs which he denied countless times, I still wish that he was a little bit like what Father wanted and not a scapegoat that he wanted him to be in case anything went wrong. He may be a moron and acts aloof all the time but at least he had one thing that I didn't have, freedom.

The metallic taste in my mouth was not pleasant and kept bothering me. I tried to get up...