He was disappointed. He was disappointed and angry at the same time. It happens when even the smallest detail, the most insignificant, at first glance, does not depend on you. He hated the feeling of losing control and going into a state of rage and at the same time momentary impotence at the moment when he realized that something in this fucking world, no matter what, he could not influence. Usually this state did not last long - a conventional couple of minutes, but it was a couple of minutes, comparable to the one in which sinners burn in hellish cauldrons, when every second of being in a boiling brew...