I lower my eyes to the floor as a rush of shame overcomes me. I just realized I'm a freak. It just happened. I hadn't even had time to judge it yet.

It's a fact, that's all. But my stepdad's judgment makes it all real, out loud, for the whole world to know. In this case, the humiliation doesn't feel that good.

“I'm sorry, Daddy,” I say, not wanting to drag him any further into my sick perversion.

“You like that word, don't you? You couldn't stop from saying it last night as I spanked you.”

This time I blush. The goosebumps come to life and run up my body....