Even though werewolves and lycans knew, to some extent, what it meant or felt like to have a second consciousness in your mind, no one knew what it felt like to truly lose control. 

The relationship between a Lycan or werewolf and their human side was a cooperation. They were both meant to be in sync, working perfectly. It was always bad when one side tried to suppress the other. And of course, people sometimes lost control of their wolves, but it was never absolute. There was always a way for them to seize back control if they wanted. 

That wasn't the case with Kai and I. Kai was ancient,...