Ruder.

Manuel died.

I still can't wrap my head around the feeling that even with all the crimes he has committed, it doesn't mean I wanted him dead. He didn't have to die. I try to divert my thoughts from this grief that broke my spirit open. There were other things to be bothered about. I imagined how Mom and dad would be disappointed because of the neglect I have subjected my own brother to. I was mad at the world and at the fact that I was left to wallow in the dark. I felt like a kid that was learning all the new things of life. Just that...